~Follow up~

I know I have not posted anything in a WHILE. I am gonna try to get things caught up in this post.

*MILESTONES*
Cole is growing soo fast. He is holding his head really good. He does not like to lay down unless its time to go to sleep. He is giggling randomly. Which by the way is soo cute! He loves his bumbo. He will sit up and look around, its so funny to watch him taking it all in. This week he has discovered his feet. He tries to get them to his mouth but he just cant figure it out. We were in the car this afternoon and I saw him trying to pull it to his mouth. In his new car seat he can see them better and he is soo amazed by it.

He just outgrew his infant seat. :( We decided to get a 3 in 1 seat. I love it BUT he cant hold is head good enough to keep if from flopping to one side while we are driving. SO i have blankets stuffed around him and I hold his head some while I am driving. I do that mostly when I am turning. It helps it from flopping side to side. It has been a big adjustment getting him in and out of the carseat. The infant seat/carrier spoiled me LOL. I picked Cole up from the baby sitters yesterday and I was walking down the steps of her back porch and almost fell. I don't know how I caught myself but Cole just looked at me with BIG BLUE eyes and smiled. My heart was on the ground. I just knew I feel with him! It was raining on top of that so it shook me up really bad. (Update sense I wrote the above paragraph: When I got him form the sitters today I tried something different. I did not sit him straight up In the seat. Doing this made his head sit back a good bit so he did not flop around. THANK GOODNESS i figured it out. I was so worried it would end up hurting his neck or something.)

We tried his exersaucer out the other night and he LOVED It. He was trying to take it all in and all he could do was look at me with his eyes wide open and smile. It was a whole different world lol. I put him in it last night and he was playing while I balanced my check book but one of the toys was right in his face and I did not see it. He got to bouncing around and it hit his eye. He cried and I grabbed him up. I felt bad but I know these things will happen. I just hated it. I'm glad it was not major and he did not get a bruise. THANK GOODNESS

*LIFE IN THE FAST LANE*
I dint know where to begin. Cole is almost 4 months old and things are just getting more chaotic by the day. I know, I know this is just the beginning. He has been sick for the second time since I came back to work and it just breaks my heart. I wish I could stay home and take care of him so he would not get sick. I know I cant protect him from everything but I guess that's the mother in me. I think he is going to have sinus' problems like me. The first time he got sick it was an Upper Respiratory Infection. Last Monday it was a cold and we had to let it run its course. He did not show signs of sickness you could hear the congestion thought and he was coughing and sneezing a lot. The pediatrician said there was nothing we could give him the was FDA approved. Everything had been recalled and it was not safe. The best thing was to let the cold do its thing. SO he is doing better. Hes still congested some but nothing like he was.

Cole is doing something new every day and its like I am missing everything while I am at work. This is hard to deal with because I want to see all of his "1st"!!! I will get over it, I have to bahahahaha. I love him so much.

When the weekends get here they go by so fast. During the week i cant wait till the weekend but then when it gets here its like i still have had no time with Cole. Its never ending. He loves his daddy. Greg can walk in the room and Cole is amazed. I think its the voice because all day he hears women voices and Greg's is so deep. Greg hates his hours cause he hardly gets to see Cole. he makes up for it on the weekend though and it is so nice too. He has gotten to where he will watch Cole so i can go and get groceries. I hate to take him because I worry someone will hit the buggy. people are so mean and will run you over these days.

*THIS AND THAT*
This blog is long and I am sorry. I have so much to catch up on. Those of you that know me really well know that I have a a bit of OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) hahaha. WEll I keep a notebook that has all the bills that we owe for including doctor bills. I cant stand to owe someone money. I break it down into each month and set an allowed $ to pay on that bill. I noticed this week I had not gotten anything from the hospital on Cole's delivery. So I called and they told me that i owed Zero dollars. I was so shocked I still can't process it. Anyways, I decided to call my OB office cause I had paid them a $ amount when I was pregnant. They tell me I have a credit WAHOO! So i should get that sometime at the end of August. I will use that to pay the doctor bills on Cole. This was great news because I did not want to be paying those things when Christmas got here. I wanted to be able to spend on decorations and gifts!!! It is his FIRST CHRISTMAS! lol. God sure heard my prayers. :)

The above news was wonderful considering its been really hard lately for us. Life's unexpected has just been popping up all around us lol. I know it just gets worse but that was a wonderful day for me. I still can't process it bahahaha. Well I see that I am just rambling now so I will end this post. I am sure you are glad lol. I tried to edit this so if it is still rough please forgive me.

Very Tired,

Kristina

Post Partum Depression (PPD)

Most of you that know me know that I have had some issues with PPD. I was not for sure what was going on until I went to see my OBGYN after we came home from the hospital. I was never violent. I was just so emotional and was not for sure why I even wanted to have a baby to begin with. It was probably all the emotions of being a new parent plus other things.

So when I went to the doctor I was put on Zoloft. I could tell by the end of the week that I was feeling better. Much better! Well, i decided a week ago that I wanted to see if I was able to get off the Zoloft. The nurse told me how to ween myself off it. So I just finished week one and let me tell you I have had a headache every day. I hope this week is much better.

I can tell that I feel fine. Other than the headache that is non stop. I am more comfortable with motherhood. I am able to get up and get the day started. I thought it would be so hard but after a day or two its just habit. I love Cole with all my heart and would not change a thing. I had a wonderful experience with my pregnancy and birth. I just could not believe that I was having these thoughts and feelings. I am so glad now that I am better. I love coming home to a face that is so full of sunshine. He brightens my day no matter what is going on!

Cole's First Day at Church

We went to Church for the first time since I had Cole. I was so excited to take him. we got a few pictures of us. I was nervous because we had not been in a while and I was not familiar with the ladies that work in the nursery. He did good though. He got a little fussy but he took his bottle and they put him in a bouncy that had lights...he loved it. So, we have to get him one like that lol.

As soon as big church was over I almost ran to check on him. All I could thing about during church was how he was doing. He was fine and I was glad. Everyone just loved him. :)

Life and the unexpected

I know I am behind on blogging. Lets just say that LIFE as been crazy! June 9th Greg came home and started cutting the grass. I have always asked him to move my car when he cuts grass. He did not this time. So the next morning I go out to crank my car and put Cole's bags in my car. I shut the passenger front door and I hear glass falling. I then realize that my window is SHATTERED! So I calmly go back in the house and get Cole and put him in his car seat. I called Greg and asked him if he realized he did it. He said no that he would have said something if he did. We said a few words and then got off the phone. I was upset but not really mad because I knew that he did not do it on purpose or mean to do it at all. So there was no reason to be mad and argue about it.

So I was gonna take his truck BUT our lawn mower is a piece of crap and he had taken his truck battery off to put on the mower...lol. He did not put it back on his truck so I ended up having to drive my car. The window was still in my car, thank GOD I have tinted windows. So I had to drive slow and the baby sitter lives on a really rough road(s). We made it and I got it replaced that day. I am glad that is all that happened. It could have been worse. Here are some pics of the window in my car:

~Milestones~

Cole has become so alert these last few days. He is awake more and smiles more. It is so amazing to look back over the last two months and see how far he has come. I just can't believe how much he has grown. I can see it now that i have been back at work for two weeks. Greg kept telling me before I went back to work that he is bigger but because I was with him all the time I could not see it. I do now. He's not FAT just long and heavy. He can still wear some newborn clothes but they are getting short on him. We are gonn have to go to size 2 diapers before long. I am trying to finish the size 1 bag we are on now.

He is still eating 4 to 6 ounces with cereal. He is not a fussy baby and if he does get fussy it usually means he is sleepy. I have been able to tell his cries for a while now but Greg is able to tune in most of the time and be able to tell what's wrong with him. Its so funny. Greg still gets so nervous with him. I know he's not here much but he does try to make up for it on the weekends. This morning he got Cole and let me sleep in. It was so nice. They had Daddy and Son time for several hours. Greg even got to change Cole's MESSY diaper, I was suprised he did not wake me up LOL!

I love when I pick him up from the sitters. I hold him and he just smiles so big. He is so excited to see me. It is the high light of my day every day!!!






Kristina

**Cole's two month shots**

June 2, 2010 at 3 pm Cole was scheduled to get his two month old shots. I was not excited about this because Greg had found out he was not gonna be able to get off work to come and help me. So I had to put my big girl pants on and do it myself! HA HA. So here goes...

I got off work at 2 and went and got Cole from the sitters. We got to the doctor office and it had just stopped raining, thank goodness because I was worried he'd get sicker if he got wet. We got inside and I signed him in. They called his name and I went to the window. The receptionist asked me what he was there for???...I replied: his 8 week shots! She asked me if I had his appointment card because he was NOT in the system to be seen today! So I was very frustrated and went and dug in my purse. I am so glad I had not cleaned it out or put his card in with all his stuff I am going to do his scrapbook with! I took it to the window and she said OK we will be with you soon! Well I took a deep breath and called Greg. He was pretty mad! I was beyond mad but was gonna wait and see what happened!

So about 30 minutes later Cole was called back and the nurse we always get was there. I love her, she is sooo sweet! So that made me feel better about the appointment situation. She weighed him and measured him. He was doing so well. He weighs 12 pounds and 11.5 ounces, he is 24 inches long, and his head is 38.5 cm around. He is right on track with his milestones! That was GREAT news. He is in the top 10 (out of 100) with his height and the top 25 (out of 100) with his weight. I was so excited. So then she said that his doctor would be in soon. So we waited and Cole was so happy.

Dr Braden came in and he checked Cole's lungs and his head and his eyes and all that and said he looked good. He answered some of the questions I had and then he held Cole. It was so cute. Cole sat with his head up looking at me like :look at me mommy! LOL. Dr Braden kissed on him and told him he was gonna have to join the world of shots today and he smiled at him. He said the nurse would be in soon to give him his shots.

My adrenaline started pumping because I just new that Cole was gonna scream. I could just remember the scream he let out when we went to the ER and he got that rocephine shot! I was so worried. So the nurse came in and she was so sweet. I did not have to hold Cole and I was so glad to. She gave him the stuff that he has to drink first and he sucked that stuff down. He did not even get it on him and she was laughing. She said most of the time its everywhere. So he must have liked it lol. b She laid him on the table and she laid over his mid section. He was half way asleep by this time so the first shot did not really phase him. The second and third ones were bad. He cried and sucked on his pacy so hard. He had one tear that rolled down his cheek. It was so sad but I knew it was for the good. I got some pictures for his baby book. I know it seems horrible that I was taking pics while he was getting stuck but its all part of life. He will have many more to come.

He did so good. He never ran fever he was just a little fussy for a few days but other than that he seemed fine. I was so glad too. We go back August 16th for his 4 month old shots. Gosh time is flying by. Hes getting so big!

Here are some of the pics I took during his visit:

Waiting to be called back

Waiting on the nurse

Soo happy

Drinking that stuff

First shot

Second shot

Third shot

Poor baby!!!

After we got home..all the nurse had was pink band aids :)


I am so glad that was over...I know it will be here again soon!

Kristina

**Cole's first trip to the ER**

Cole had to go to a different sitter Tuesday because my sitter had to take off at the last minute...she had something that came up. So I had a friend that kept him for me. I called several times to check on him and every time she would tell me he was sleeping. I thought this was weird because he is usually up in the afternoons for several hours. Well I went to get him that afternoon and he was barley able to open his eyes when i was talking to him.

So we got home and I changed his diaper and was gonna give him a bath and feed him. He felt really HOT to the touch. So i took his temp under the arm and it was 99.3. I was really worried because he usually runs 97.3. So I called Greg's mom and she told me to call the after hours number to the pediatrician. So i did and she said it was normal BUT I was not happy with that. So I monitored it for a while then we put him down to sleep. Greg came into the living room and told me that he was making a funny sound when he would breath...I went to listen to it and it was almost like a rattle! Greg told me to call the pediatrician again and I said no lets just take him to the ER because shes gonna tell me hes OK if there is NO fever like last time.

We got dressed and got to the ER and signed in...because hes never been there we had to do all kinds of paper work. After that they put us right in a room no waiting...I thought WOW this will be quick...WRONG!!! WE got there at 11 pm and did not leave till after 2 am. The nurse came in and talked to us then FINALLY the Dr came in and he just took notes and said he was gonna get a blood test, strep test, RSV test and a chest x-ray. So we said OK, by this time we had no idea what to expect because this was the first for both of us.

So they came in and did the strep and RSV test. Then the ladies came in and did the blood test. The worst part was the x-ray. Me and Greg had to hold Cole down. I had his arms and Greg had his legs. we had to pull them to where he could not move...on top of him SCREAMING!!! Then the lady did not have the machine ready to take the freaking picture. I was so mad!!! She finally gets it and I grab Cole and just hold him... he was breaking my heart!

The Dr finally came in and told us all the test results were fine but his white blood count was elevated meaning we caught the infection before it got serious. He diagnosed Cole with an Upper Respiratory Infection and said he was gonna give him a shot and write a prescription for an antibiotic. I was like OK we finally know whats going on. SO the nurses come in to give him his shot and tell me hes getting a rocephine!!!! OK FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN FORTUNATE TO NOT HAVE A ROCEPHINE SHOT...BLESS YOUR HEART. THOSE THINGS HURT SO BAD A GROWN MAN WILL CRY!!! I CRIED WHEN THEY GAVE COLE THAT SHOT IT WAS HORRIBLE. GREG HAD TO HOLD HIM ALONG WITH ONE OF THE NURSES.

We got home and he. slept all night long, poor baby was exhausted. We had to sleep under a cool mist humidifier and it started breaking the junk up. He woke up choking when that stuff started breaking up. I took off work Wednesday to take him for a follow up with his pediatrician and to get his medicine filled. The doctor said his lungs sounded good and that it was jut a viral thing that he will be fine.

He is much better now and he still has congestion. I have to keep it sucked out pretty regular so he don't choke. I am having to give him pedialite some because hes had some diarrhea. I took some pictures...


This is when I noticed he was really hot




These were when they were looking for a vein for blood.


So tired


Waiting to go home...he gave up!

His fever is gone thank goodness. My pediatrician said it is fever but not serious fever. It was serious to me lol. I am so glad hes better.

These were taken today:




Ilove this little boy so much!!!

Kristina

~Back to REALITY~

My time at home has come to an END! I will go back to work tomorrow. Reality hit me today and I got all emotional! I already miss Cole and he's just in the other room asleep. I wish I could stay home with him forever but we can't always get what we want. I hope I manage at work tomorrow. Maybe I will be occupied enough to make it go by fast so I can go get him ASAP!

Cole will be 7 weeks old Wednesday and I am amazed at how big he is getting. He's still little but I noticed today that his clothes are not long enough for him lol. Hes so long. He is already taking 5 to 6 ounces in formula and has been on cereal for 3 and a half weeks. GOSH hes gonna be a chunk by the time we go for his shots on June 2nd.

Well Its time to go to bed, 5:30 will come early. Wish me luck and pray for me.

Kristina

The HIGHLIGHT of my day

I had just feed Cole and he was just staring out into space. So i started talking baby talk to him and poking his cheeks. Then all of a sudden he smiled at me. This was so overwhelming I just laughed so hard and he was smiling bigger at me. I had tears in my eyes and was so excited. I got a few pictures on my cell phone but they dont justify the moment.

So I called and told Greg about it and he was happy. So when Greg got home I went to change Cole. I called Greg in there and told him to watch that I was gonna get Cole to smile. So I started talking the baby talk and he just smiled...Greg was so excited just like I was. It has been the best moment ever and thats why its the HIGHLIGHT of my day. I love Cole so MUCH!!!





I love this little guy so much. I am so glad I did not miss this moment!!!

Kristina
~The happiest mom in the world~

Six week follow up

So today I had my check up. I was not thinking when I made the appointment back when I was pregnant. It was at 7:30 in the morning UGH. So that meant I had to get up at 4:30 and get ready and feed Cole then load the car and leave around 6 to make sure I got through all the morning traffic. It was a long night lol.

So Cole ended up waking up at 3 for a feeding and so I just stayed up. We got to the doctor office around 6:50, thank goodness I missed all the traffic. I changed Cole and we sat in the backseat and I feed him. It was time for a feeding anyways so he was content for the rest of the morning. So then we headed up the elevator and checked in at the office. The nurse came in and we went straight back. Mrs Connie just loved Cole. I was the first patient so I was thinking I would be in and out BUT i forgot that Kay Kay does her rounds at the Suites before she sees patients. So we waited on her and that was fine because Cole was sleeping :).

The doctor came in and we talked and she examed me and everything looks great. I was glad to hear the great news. While we were talking she asked me about my Zoloft I am taking for the PPD (postpartum depression). So she decided I needed to stay on it till September. That was great news for me cause leaving Cole next week is gonna be harder on me. I just wish I could stay home!!! Wishful thinking lol.

ALSO, today Cole is 6 weeks old!!! The time is going by so fast. I cant believe he will 2 months old in a few weeks. He will get his shots. Its so unreal. I mean I have wanted this for so long. Everytime we talked about having kids I had something else that came up and would have to find out what was wrong with me. UGH. Now he is here and I just cant keep up. Going back to work is depressing because I feel I will miss all of his milestones like SMILING. I see him doing it in his dreams but I want to see him do it when I make a funny sound! OH TEARS!

Well I am going to end this post. I hope to post again soon

Kristina

First day without Cole

Well I have to go back to work in a week. I am not looking forward to it at all!!! I decided to take Cole to the baby sitters early so I can get use to him being gone and him not having me around. We got up at 5:30 this morning and i changed him and feed him. He was so sweet. I layed him in his bassinet so I could get dressed. He just looked around and cooed. It was so cute.

It took us about 30 minutes to get to Mrs Marie's house. She was so excited to see him for the first time. I had a list of things to go over with her before I left. I told her how to mix his formula and how often he ate and all that good stuff. I got him out of the car seat and he was sleeping. He is so cute when sleeping. I kissed him and snuggled with him. She got him and he was so peaceful. I just stood there like I did not know what to do lol. I finally said I'm gonna go. She said I could call when I want to check on him.

I called at 9:30 and he was ok and I am gonna call her in just a little bit. She is probably feeding him right now. I so miss him. I have not cried much but I feel so bad for taking him over there. I am here at home cleaning and blogging! I hope this gets easier and fast! Here is a few pics that I took this morning when I was getting him ready...

This and That

Thursday was the Canton Flea Market. I was suppose to get up early and head to Carthage to drop Cole off with grandma (Greg's mom) and go to the flea market. Well I got up late and did not get on the road when planned. So on the way I ran into a problem...my flip flop broke!!! So I had to stop in Jackson and run in Target to get flip flops. The problem was I had to rig my shoe just so I could run in and get some...that was so funny!!! WEll then we get on the road and get to grandmas house and I visit for a little while before heading out.

I get the Canton and park and find my friends. We talked and walked and shopped. I had a good time. The whole time I was looking at my phone making sure Greg's mom had not called me :). I called a few times to check in and he was doing good. It was very different considering hes been with me every day for five and a half weeks. It was nice to have a break but I missed him sooo much!

SHOPPING

I got Cole a belt (for when hes older) that has his name and the John Deer emblem on it. It is so cute. I got him a onesie that has a bowtie embroidred in it and a bib with a bible verse on it. I got me and Greg some T-shirts...you can never have enough of those. By this time I was so tired and HOT!!! Did I mention how hot it was? I wore jeans and a BLACK t-shirt. I was soak and wet!

I headed back to Carthage and visited some more with my mother-n-law. Her and Cole had a good visit. We left and went by Fred's and visit some friends. We enjoyed it but had to get on the road to head home. I was so tired and ready to get in the bed.

Five Weeks Old

I can not believe Cole is already 5 weeks old. Time has flown by so fast. I am going through separation anxiety this week. I have a week and a half and he will start going to the baby sitters. I am not looking forward to it at all. We are going to Carthage tomorrow. I will leave Cole with granny and go to the Canton Flea Market with a friend. This will help me some. Then next week he will go to the baby sitters on Tuesday so she can get use to him and vice versa. Plus it will give me time a way from him and adjust to it. I will go and get my pedicure that Greg and Cole got me for Mother's Day. I am excited but worried to cause I don't want to leave him at all!!! I know this will get better but I just don't know when.

He is getting so big. He is taking 4 ounces of formula now and that is with cereal. He was spitting up a good bit with the formula so the doctor said to add cereal. He seems to be doing better on it. He sleeps deeper not so much longer. It just depends on our day as to how he sleeps that night. Most of the time I just put his paci in his mouth and hes ok. He does not like the swing. He might stay in it about 15 minutes and then he cries, that's what hes doing now lol.

Cole goes to the doctor in three weeks to get his shots. I am not looking forward to that at all. I hope he does well. We will see. Well I gotta cut this one short Cole is fussing.

Kristina